Okay here’s the thing, hot doesn’t describe the places where
I’ve been… Busan/Yangsan has had record break temperature this summer. China
issued the second highest heat alert across the country… What the fuck! I felt the coolest summer in Atlanta for this shit! Why is
it so damn hot?
I just want to go outside for an adventure, but I don’t want the
sole of my shoes to melt on the asphalt! Along with the heat, there is an
energy shortage in South Korea. Ummmmmm one of the most IT savvy country in the
world is running out of electricity, so now most public buildings must keep
their buildings at only 28 degree Celsius… I’m not going to convert this… Just
know it’s hot!!!
So malls, shopping centers, grocery stores, banks, and
government buildings are so hot! Too hot! Home is the only escape, so I stay
home. I eat, sleep, watch TV, Skype family, and eat some more. I got fat, and not like "oh you put on a couple pounds", no bitch its like, "Damn gurl, you been eatin huh?" Also, I got so bored that I scrapbooked my entire
China Summer Program, and Bangkok trip. My brilliant idea is to scrapbook the
year of my adventure!
Staying home gives me a lot of time to think… I’ve been
thinking too much I think…
Had my first real meltdown since leaving home. Yesterday
(August 17, 2013), marks exactly 3 months since I left for my year long adventure… I think my meltdown was triggered by the scrapbooking… I really just wanted
to go home and see my friends! Annie, a dear friend of mind, was having her
going away party. She’s closing this chapter of her life in Atlanta, and is
moving back to New York City… I couldn’t even be there to say good-bye. I really love you Annie, I'm proud to have not only met you, but call you one of my best friends! There
are other things that plagued my mind, which makes me very sad. How people are
getting together for school partying it up one last time, the Atlanta Rainbow Trout getting their bronze medal at IGLA
(congrats BTW), how much I miss loved ones, and more. I just really wanted to
go home. I’d hoped that I would go to bed and wake up in Duluth. I want to hug
and laugh with my friends and family, I want to live the regular life I lived
before I started traveling, and I want to be completely comfortable! These are
the things I want! I felt as though I made a mistake in going abroad for such a
long period of time. It is just so different from what I expected of myself and
of this trip. I thought I was just more equipped to do this. I just thought it
would be so much easier I guess. Thank god for facebook chat and Eric Reynolds,
I leaned on him for moral support, and he help me out of some real dark shit. I
woke up today feeling better. I told myself that I am truly blessed, lucky, and fortunate
to have these experiences! This is just the quiet before the storm. Before of
my mom and sister coming to see me, before the school year starts, before I
start traveling again, and before it’s over. I understand now that this is
hard; being away from friends, family, the people you love, and it will get
harder, but it will get easier too.
On a happier note, I’m getting a shit ton of presents when
my sister and mom comes!!! YAY WINNING!
I know I'll give you perceptions of this country.
My current perception of this country is this… I don’t have
one. Perceptions are not the way to experience the culture. I’m just going to
let you read all the experiences I have, and you can judge for yourself!
I know the current content is kinda boring, but it’ll get
better once I start getting busy! It’s just how I feel right now.
Just a lot of reflections.
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